Time of day: 9:15 PM EST
Location: carpeted floor of my room
Distractions: cats, being cold despite wearing snuggie and space heater nearby, boyfriend calling me (I answered and then resumed meditating after)
Words on tape that caught my attention: "dissolve." This is what Kabat-Zinn uses to transition from one body part to the next. "Just let your toes dissolve," he says. I'm actually not terribly keen on this imagery.
Wandering thoughts: I had thoughts about things I need to do, anxiety about work, thoughts about what I plan to wear tonight to the tail end of a New Year's party, thoughts about cleaning my house. I have been having some vertigo/headaches lately, and some of my wandering thoughts were bizarre.
Sensations experienced: More this time in general. Felt uterus crampy while on pelvis region. At the end when he tells you to wiggle your fingers and toes I felt a very interesting sensation in my right hand fingers.
Comments: I didn't fall asleep but I didn't feel entirely awake for this one either. I felt sort of in a dreamlike waking state off and on.

My cat is also my meditation nemesis. Even if I shut him out of my room when I put the body scan cd on, he cries and paws at my bedroom door.
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